SOME DAY!

Someday, I held someone's hand

In a busy traffic to save her

And put myself at risk in front of vehicles

Someday, I asked someone

If she reaches home safe and in time,

Someday, I asked someone
If she is staying healthy and ate something

Someday, I asked someone
If she is tired and exhausted

Someday, I asked someone

If she is in trouble just recall me,

Someday, I asked someone

If she needs me to wipe out her tears

Drive her confusions out

Someday, I asked someone

If she do really remember me

Someday, I asked someone
Will you change if you go far away?
Will you keep your promises to me?

Someday, I was asked by someone
You are my best friend forever
You are my inspiration
You are lucky to me
I shall never forget you
I shall remain in touch with you
No matter what

What was that?

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

You are no one; since how long have I known you?

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

Don't irritate me, and leave me alone

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

Go away and don’t come in between

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

You are nothing to me

Someday, the same someone
Tells me
I have to change

What was that?

And there was no such day,
If the same someone
Who asked
Are you okay?
Are you healthy?
Did you eat anything?
If you are tired?
You do not take care of yourself.
You go this way, you are confused
I will manage time for you

Someday! Yes, someday! It happened.

It happened out of nothing,

It happened for nothing,
What was that?
For what was that?
Someday!!!

SHAME ON YOU!!

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UNANSWERED! INJUSTICE

Why was I blocked?

Why was I un-friend?

Why only me? 
Why was I only targeted?

Following Day

Account deactivated; I don't know

Please don't be changed for me? 
What did I do?
What lacked my friendship?

7 Days Later
Don't irritate me
I wanted to change from beginning
I don't know; don't come in between

First Month

It is better to value other rather than you

Second Month

You were one sided

You were risky

Third Month

I don't want any friends

Fourth Month

Why did you humiliate me?

Fifth Month

Why interference?

Family and Personal Life

What will you do?

Ninth Month

Unrealistic and Impractical

Who are you? How far have I known you?

You are no one from the beginning.

What do you think?

Had the truth come out the same day

I would have solved the same day

I would have understood, and confronted
I would have confessed and moved ahead
And let you move ahead with necessary suggestions

No one would have been broken and hurt

No one would have been risky

Who was the player beyond all this?

Where did friendship go?

For what cause it did happen?

Still not answered! Still confused!
Still in a mess!

Then why would mistakes not appear?

THE UN - FORGETTABLE

Anything done with the good intention

Does resemble you are wrong

The mistakes are endured

And consequences reveals immediately

Yet hold on, and do not lose patience

Because it is better to be bitter

Losing your own value for a time

May create positive life moves afterwards

Lamentation and regrets you have

Will become vital lesson to others

You proved to be good someday

You proved to be bad some bad day

Yet you may be easy going someday

Because you confess when you are convicted

You were forced to be confused

From the beginning

The key to solution was not with you

They were hidden somewhere inside the womb

Never knew, had I lied/ ignored/ not confessed/ not notified

I would have escaped – but morally would be wrong lifetime

Hardships were never justified

That wasn't even not for me

But accreditation was handed in the palm of another

I was left aweful, alone, and beggar of good thoughts

Yes I remained, a culprit

Ignored-blocked-delisted-boycotted-shameful

Several attempts were made to confront and confess

But  ...

No, transition phase of my time shifted

From positive to negatives

No one cares? Who cares?

What is on one's mind?

Cheating - Betrayal - Mistakes - Lies

From once told best buddy to a no one?

From Friend-In to Friend-Out automatically

Messed and Confused !!! No clues!

THAT BASTARD – THAT SON OF A BITCH

That son of a bitch

Was the player

Trashing and misbehaving his own

He is the bastard

Who deserves curse

Time & again he should weep for his deeds

I pray to the almighty

Each and every moment of my life

Let he be suffered brutally

That Bastard – That Son of A Bitch

Sin's forever shall not be hidden

Day comes and time comes for suffering from his deeds

"HISTORY AGAINST THE STORY"

Every person has their story behind;

I also do have the same.

But,

I want to make the History

Of the Story I have.

WHO AM I?

Sacrificing,

To satisfy thy' desires

Sacrificing,

All those days and nights;

Sweating and shivering

Just to wear a tag,

Of a culprit at the end

After being ignored and boycotted

Against being replaced with that bastard …

Who am I?

Sacrificing,

To be in between the affairs of who and who

To become a prey of those bastards

And thy enjoys with the same bastard

That bastard ate my flesh and raw blood

And even claimed 5 million for his "Sagarmatha Campaign"

God,

Who am I?

Sacrificing,

Just to become risky,

Just to being cheated, from the one who was trusted

And ultimately, to being no one after bastard have come

I, a live dead person

I was a criminal, though dead, though prey

Tell me, why don't you?

Who am I? Who am I?

CLOSE UR EYES & LISTEN 2 UR HEART

Just close your eyes

And listen to your heart

Beating by the way

Ironically sometimes & sometime in excitement

Melting down the chocolate of memories

Nail biting sometimes and

Sometimes lips biting

Behind the curtain of old tragic stories

None is about to replace

Those dreams of compassion

Those joys for thy

Recurring again & again & again …

None is about to discover

Those secrets from the interior core

Those hearty feelings

Evolved eternally, again & again & again …

Just close your eyes

And listen to your heart …

TOO LONG, TOO OLD ...

Living a careless mornings

Cruel days

And awful nights

Too hard to cope

With this heavy heart

This swinging brain

Black soul hunts

Down these dreadful seasons

With beautiful silk dresses

Muting voices

Pierced memories

Hammered head

Has untold stories

For years

Too long, too old...

Hidden & truthful secret...

Composed: JeevDsk

REST FOR FREE

I take a long sigh

Deep breath

In fact, very-very deep

I have felt the upturns and downturns

Of the life,

That never rested my mind

Now,

I am feeling necessity

To live beyond this Earth

No matter what,

I feel no one is caring for

I want to rest in peace

For a long-long time

I woke up all nights

Never felt sleeping free

Now,

I think I should be freed

From the bond of belongingness

From the world of selfish

I want to Rest in Peace

Desperately, Eternally & Entirely

Please!

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Objections!

From the relationships I have had

(From relatives to bonding & including those all whom I valued from the depth of heart)

From the vision & missions I have had

(From what I perceive, learn, create & become)

From the goals & destinations I see clear because of using own logic & ideas

(In contrary, they were seen blur & useless)

From this filthy life – those everyone who humiliate & took advantage of

Shortly,

Became f**king tired, pissed, messed

Accused & time & again humiliated

Against only for the sake of their good at long term

From the public's point of view

Demotivated from every aspects

Thus planning to quit

May you be happy, all, because I shall never be in between?

God Bless You,

I may Q-U-I-T!

RELATIONSHIP DIES

WITNESS DOES NOT

Feelings were killed

Emotions were rapped

Trust were lost

And psychology were jumbled

So the relationship dies

Yet witness does not

My ears were your witness

Your eyes were my witness

My confidence was your energy

And your happiness was my stamina

All of a sudden, but

Relationship dies

Yet witness does not...

No More Young, No More Energetic

Do you remember those days?

Those ‘wow wow’ words

Those movies

Those long walk to home

Do you remember that inspiration?

That team work

Flirting & chatting

And realizing the realities at the end

Do you remember when one counts as best one?

The backup one had for each other

That “slxNo} g%'l§\g] ;fyL” word

Those sharing and again realizing the realities at the end

I became a culprit all of a sudden

Because I should let it go

Should always think that I was no one

Despite of anything and any deeds I do

And always I realize

For whom was those words were

When I was just ignored becoming a risk factor

While I was no more young & I was no more energetic

There was a complete mess & replacement

There was cheating for desire fulfillment

There was an option

And there was a game plan intentional or unintentional

Can’t write too long; it’s become a history!

No more young – no more energetic ...... Uff.

HAPPY – SAD

Do you ever feel,

What a weeping soul says?

Do you ever feel,

When hundreds of cups of teas were supported by thousands of cigarettes

Do you ever think of other?

When you felt awesome, wonderful & relaxed?

When you were busy on caring other's spouse & child?

Do you remember August 7^th 2015?

Do you remember October 4^th 2015?

Do you remember October 14^th 2015?

Do you remember November 11^th 2015?

Do you remember December 17^th 2015?

Do you remember December 25^th 2015?

Do you remember January 8^th 2016?

Do you remember January 24^th 2016?

DO you remember January 28^th 2016?

DO you remember February 10^th 2016?

Do you remember February 23^rd 2016?

Do you remember February 28^th 2016?

DO you remember March 13^th 2016?

Do you remember March 29^th 2016?

Do you remember April 3^rd 2016?

Do you remember April 12^th 2016?

Do you remember April 14^th 2016?

Do you remember April 16^th 2016?

Do you remember April 17^th 2016?

Do you remember April 30^th 2016?

Do you remember April 31^st 2016?

Do you remember May 30^th 2016?

Do you remember June 8^th 2016?

Do you remember June 22^nd 2016?

Do you remember June 28^th 2016?

Do you remember June 29^th 2016?

Do you remember July 1^st 2016?

Do you remember July 7^th 2016?

Do you remember July 8^th 2016?

Do you remember July 15^th 2016?

Your headache,

Your busy schedule,

Your tiredness,

Your ignorance,

Your every hot night,

And how come one went in between?

And how come one came to be one-sided?

And how come one irritated?

And how come one was disgusting?

Do you remember July 20^th 2016?

Do you remember July 23^rd 2016?

Do you remember July 28^th 2016?

Do you remember August 1^st 2016?

Do you remember August 2^nd 2016?

Do you remember August 7^th 2016?

Do you remember August 14^th 2016?

Do you remember September 17^th 2016?

Do you remember September 18^th 2016?

Do you remember September 28^th 2016?

Do you remember October 3^rd 2016?

Do you remember October 5^th 2016?

Do you remember October 18^th 2016?

Do you remember November 24^th 2016?

Do you remember November 25^th 2016?

Do you remember December 14^th 2016?

And finally, that soul which weeps alone

Is a culprit

Is a player

Is over-smart

Is a diplomat

Is an addicted

Phew…….. Thank you!

FALSIFICATION

Busy schedules, scratches and false accusations

All over the mind, heart and trust buzzing

But, never gonna give up

Because, there in fact was no game

Grunting pains from different sources

But happy, to take over someone's conspiracy

And tell just sorry, because

You need patience and courage to face falsification

There was clean divine trust

Swept away, snatched away

Along by an unintentional gamer

Who plays until the same will fall under its own typhoon

Okay and so comfortable, never felt before

Because day comes when false reports are countered

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LONE AND ALIVE

For a peace in this heart

I try to explore hundreds of miles

For the eternal happiness

I try to work till death with fullest dedication

Millions of bubbles of thoughts

That pours in this mind

Hundreds of thousands of feelings

I did never shared

Billions of words to utter to thy

I always swallowed to myself

And yet with broken pieces of heart

I smile endlessly

Because I am alone

And I am just alive

There's no one who even know

And there's no one who cared for

Therefore, million times I dumped

My thoughts and feelings and emotions and words

Into the unknown basket

That vanished with time

Yet I advocated thy belongings

To held her head high always, no matter what

With pride, respect, value and acknowledgements

Sincerely and with dedications

Towards who, today thy is

In front of whatever comes ahead

Because I was and am alone

Yet I am just alive

A futile smile and with a fragile heart

But with supernatural power of thoughts

I presumed thy as my best one

In short time, short moment we endured

Time passed by, it passes by and this life perishes shortly

Remembrances poured and poured and poured

Like the blood circulation

Continuous, and tireless and restlessly

Because I was and am alone: And yet I am just alive !!!

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