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#MADHISE: #DHOTI: #RAJESHPOKHAREL

Venom when treated carefully becomes a medicine

And when misused becomes the cause of death

Bastard (Rajesh Pokharel) misused and mis-utilized the same

Testing at his own family

Who had been happily living since several years

Injecting venom for the short term fantasy

Is what your sins reveals you son of a bitch

You used someone innocent & someone’s daughter

What intentions and expectations you benefited for the innocent?

Question mark to your character Mr. Bastard?

One experiment can cause serious damages

And you f**king piece of shit don’t even understand

What have caused to lives of more than 5 peoples?

What the f**k did you want to prove yourself?

Bloody bastard? What the f**king experience you have?

Poking into the lives of innocent person

Asking and inquiring about character in front of everyone

What professionalism have you developed?

Whose importance did you want to seek?

You bloody hell Khate Rajesh Pokharel?

Time & again and time & again

You will be slapped brutally & be made naked

This is the promise of time

Your vengeance of sickness to the memorable day

Are ending with memorable slaps to your life

Note this down! You cold bloody bastard

Your open publicity & spread rumors

Your use to fantasize someone’s daughter

Will cost you as much more than your life

Just mind it time & again you fucking freak

Finally, you want to escape

Plotting the politics and scandals in professionalism

Wearing the mask of image

And assaulting someone who wasn’t on the script

Asking 5 Million to satisfy for your personal interest

Injecting venom in your own partner’s mind

And trying to fulfill your fantasies with someone’s daughter

You are “a person of unsound mind, a fraud, a corrupt”

You bloody "KHATE BEGGAR" Rajesh Pokharel

What under fucking slut management do you work at?

Which doesn’t even have an ethical professionalism

You along with your profession is fraud!

Just mind it, you piece of shit?

;Da]u !!!

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#Madhavi (Masuri) & #Jeev Dsk

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# Dear Aama # Dear Best Friend

Have you ever felt the importance of life when you already know that you are leaving all your belongings behind and take the challenge of never ever coming back live?

You waited for the absolute truth of the Universe from the bed at the age of 82 years and held that courage and patience since long you know what will happen to you. You had the flashbacks, your grandparents, your parents, your birth home, your karma home, your better half. You had flashbacks of the things you have created from your own hands, beautiful mind. You had flashbacks of the things you have created from your womb to keep alive your successors for years and eras to come after you leave everything behind. The time you spent with struggles and deeds have the greatest ever inventions from you for all our blessings and gifts. It is really negligible when expressed in words. To be honest, I have to express, otherwise who else does so?

Yes, I have felt what was in your mind from the bed you spent since quite long before you took rest. Today, yesterday and each following day your reminiscence reverberates into my mind. I have embraced you to feel at the deepest core of your heart that day. I cried and you listened and nobody noticed what really happens between you and me. I have asked you every detail of the events and happenings of your life year wise, incident wise since you know to perceive your surroundings. Although physically you are not here with us, I remember in the same wooded VARANDA of our home, we used to talk long-long time during night. You would spun the holy thread for every morning and evening light offerings to god and holy ancestors with your beautiful hands and I would irritate you asking again and again resting on your lap. That makes me emotional time and again.

That day! I do not ever forget till the last breath is within me and till the last drop of blood I have in my body; I lost the two most important persons of my life with whom I feel that I am secured, I am attached and never ever are separable from this heart. I have never felt like smiling since then and there is nothing in the earth that could replace and calm this heavy heart.

I know how it feels, because I have myself felt death from so close time and again in my life. Death really echoes my mind frequently. I tried hard to inspire someone someday; I tried hard to make happy someone someday; I tried hard to respect and value someone someday; I tried hard to retain someone someday and someday I lost everything. The depth of this possessive heart knows how it means to lose the most inspiring persona you ever felt while holding the hands and embracing the wonderful souls.

It's deep, deep respect and so true love for you two missing person of my life the same day with no sharable thoughts to anyone and calligraphic words whatsoever. I owe and badly miss you two throughout this life and can't ever be replaced with any, anything.

# Dear Aama # Dear Best Friend!!!

I SWEAR, GOD - I WILL KILL YOU
BRUTALLY WITH THE SAME STONE
YOU HIT ME AND MY FATE

You God,
You are bastard

You made fun of me
You made fun of my honesty
You made fun of my dedication
You made fun of my life
You made fun of my career
You made fun of my depression

You God,
You are cheater

You played with me
You played with my sentiments
You played with my deeds
You played with my trust
You played with my hard work
You played with my blood, tears and sweat
You bastard

Why did you do this to me?
Why do you act like an innocent?
WHY?
You snatched my happy life
You snatched my growing career
You snatched my entire belongings
Why didn't you dare to kill me that day?
WHY BASTARD GOD, WHY?

Someday,
You earned me fame
You earned me name
You earned me relations
You earned me friends
You earned me someone calling best friend

And now,
You cheat, you bitch God!
You took everything from me.
You didn't you just leave anything?

You bastard,
You wanted someone tell me no one
You lied with my fate
You cheated my good intentions

You acted someone telling best friends
And you stab knife on my back so hard
You acted some opportunity to me
And you hit me with the stone on my face

Never ever God,
Never ever, you are forgiven
I'll hang you if I find you
I'll hit you with the stone
So hard, you'll never realize
Cheating with me again,
Playing with me again,
Acting with me again,

I swear, I'll snatch from you everything
I've cried more than one and half years
I curse you, bitter than the bitch
I curse you, bitter than the witch

And yet again, I am not satisfied
You God, You Bastard,
You appeared in different form
To destroy me and my entire things
I will not leave you until my last breath
I will kill you bastard!!!

SOME DAY!

Someday, I held someone's hand

In a busy traffic to save her

And put myself at risk in front of vehicles

Someday, I asked someone

If she reaches home safe and in time,

Someday, I asked someone
If she is staying healthy and ate something

Someday, I asked someone
If she is tired and exhausted

Someday, I asked someone

If she is in trouble just recall me,

Someday, I asked someone

If she needs me to wipe out her tears

Drive her confusions out

Someday, I asked someone

If she do really remember me

Someday, I asked someone
Will you change if you go far away?
Will you keep your promises to me?

Someday, I was asked by someone
You are my best friend forever
You are my inspiration
You are lucky to me
I shall never forget you
I shall remain in touch with you
No matter what

What was that?

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

You are no one; since how long have I known you?

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

Don't irritate me, and leave me alone

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

Go away and don’t come in between

Someday, the same someone

Tells me

You are nothing to me

Someday, the same someone
Tells me
I have to change

What was that?

And there was no such day,
If the same someone
Who asked
Are you okay?
Are you healthy?
Did you eat anything?
If you are tired?
You do not take care of yourself.
You go this way, you are confused
I will manage time for you

Someday! Yes, someday! It happened.

It happened out of nothing,

It happened for nothing,
What was that?
For what was that?
Someday!!!

SHAME ON YOU!!

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UNANSWERED! INJUSTICE

Why was I blocked?

Why was I un-friend?

Why only me? 
Why was I only targeted?

Following Day

Account deactivated; I don't know

Please don't be changed for me? 
What did I do?
What lacked my friendship?

7 Days Later
Don't irritate me
I wanted to change from beginning
I don't know; don't come in between

First Month

It is better to value other rather than you

Second Month

You were one sided

You were risky

Third Month

I don't want any friends

Fourth Month

Why did you humiliate me?

Fifth Month

Why interference?

Family and Personal Life

What will you do?

Ninth Month

Unrealistic and Impractical

Who are you? How far have I known you?

You are no one from the beginning.

What do you think?

Had the truth come out the same day

I would have solved the same day

I would have understood, and confronted
I would have confessed and moved ahead
And let you move ahead with necessary suggestions

No one would have been broken and hurt

No one would have been risky

Who was the player beyond all this?

Where did friendship go?

For what cause it did happen?

Still not answered! Still confused!
Still in a mess!

Then why would mistakes not appear?

THE UN - FORGETTABLE

Anything done with the good intention

Does resemble you are wrong

The mistakes are endured

And consequences reveals immediately

Yet hold on, and do not lose patience

Because it is better to be bitter

Losing your own value for a time

May create positive life moves afterwards

Lamentation and regrets you have

Will become vital lesson to others

You proved to be good someday

You proved to be bad some bad day

Yet you may be easy going someday

Because you confess when you are convicted

You were forced to be confused

From the beginning

The key to solution was not with you

They were hidden somewhere inside the womb

Never knew, had I lied/ ignored/ not confessed/ not notified

I would have escaped – but morally would be wrong lifetime

Hardships were never justified

That wasn't even not for me

But accreditation was handed in the palm of another

I was left aweful, alone, and beggar of good thoughts

Yes I remained, a culprit

Ignored-blocked-delisted-boycotted-shameful

Several attempts were made to confront and confess

But  ...

No, transition phase of my time shifted

From positive to negatives

No one cares? Who cares?

What is on one's mind?

Cheating - Betrayal - Mistakes - Lies

From once told best buddy to a no one?

From Friend-In to Friend-Out automatically

Messed and Confused !!! No clues!

THAT BASTARD – THAT SON OF A BITCH

That son of a bitch

Was the player

Trashing and misbehaving his own

He is the bastard

Who deserves curse

Time & again he should weep for his deeds

I pray to the almighty

Each and every moment of my life

Let he be suffered brutally

That Bastard – That Son of A Bitch

Sin's forever shall not be hidden

Day comes and time comes for suffering from his deeds

"HISTORY AGAINST THE STORY"

Every person has their story behind;

I also do have the same.

But,

I want to make the History

Of the Story I have.

WHO AM I?

Sacrificing,

To satisfy thy' desires

Sacrificing,

All those days and nights;

Sweating and shivering

Just to wear a tag,

Of a culprit at the end

After being ignored and boycotted

Against being replaced with that bastard …

Who am I?

Sacrificing,

To be in between the affairs of who and who

To become a prey of those bastards

And thy enjoys with the same bastard

That bastard ate my flesh and raw blood

And even claimed 5 million for his "Sagarmatha Campaign"

God,

Who am I?

Sacrificing,

Just to become risky,

Just to being cheated, from the one who was trusted

And ultimately, to being no one after bastard have come

I, a live dead person

I was a criminal, though dead, though prey

Tell me, why don't you?

Who am I? Who am I?

CLOSE UR EYES & LISTEN 2 UR HEART

Just close your eyes

And listen to your heart

Beating by the way

Ironically sometimes & sometime in excitement

Melting down the chocolate of memories

Nail biting sometimes and

Sometimes lips biting

Behind the curtain of old tragic stories

None is about to replace

Those dreams of compassion

Those joys for thy

Recurring again & again & again …

None is about to discover

Those secrets from the interior core

Those hearty feelings

Evolved eternally, again & again & again …

Just close your eyes

And listen to your heart …